This memorial website was created in the memory of our loved one, "Buggs" Nathaniel Jon Traill who was born in Colville, Washington on December 24, 1983 to Mark and Tina Traill and passed away in Owasso, Oklahoma on December 04, 2005 at the age of 21, two weeks before his 22nd birthday. Most everyone that knew Nathaniel called him Buggs, unless you were joking with him, he was at work, or he was in trouble with Marissa then it was Nathaniel Jon . Marissa and Kristen's other name for him was honey . Buggs was the kind of person you'd be lucky to have as a friend, as he always said "I've got these big ears for listening." He was always there for all of his friends whenever they needed him. Buggs always made jokes and he would say or do just about anything to get you to laugh or smile. Buggs had a smile that could light up a room and a contagious laugh. Buggs had the most beautiful blue eyes. He was always loud, you heard him comming before you ever saw him. Buggs was never afraid to tell you just what he thought about anything weither you wanted to hear it or not. You could always count on him to speak his mind. Buggs was a very friendly, caring, and passionate person and he could make friends with just about anyone. He had a passion for motorcycles and cars and he loved spending time with his friends and listening to music. Buggs loved "his two babys" as he would say, his soon to be fiancee Marissa and his Pit Bull L.B. L.B. always thought she was Buggs' #1 girl...It was a close call . Buggs was always the life of the party it was hard not to notice. He also loved being the center of attention. He had fun no matter what he was doing. Buggs had an obvious passion for life and lived it to the fullest. Buggs wanted to go back to school and become an Oklahoma Highway Patrol. Buggs never got to accomplish his dream. A piece of us went with Buggs when he passed away and he will remain in our hearts forever. God had a special plan for Buggs now he's our beautiful angel in heaven. He will always be loved and missed by all that got the pleasure of knowing him.
Buggs worked at Classic Cheverolet as a car salesman. We always told people that if you don't want to buy a car that day, don't go see Buggs because he could sell anything to anyone weither they needed it or not.
Buggs loved OU football!!
Friends and family please take the time to add your tributes and condolences, and light a candle for Buggs and always remember those we have held in our arms for a little while, we hold in our hearts forever.
This is the sticker we had made for our cars in memory of Buggs. Anyone who has not got a sticker and would like one please let Kristen and Marissa know.
And when I'm gone, just carry on, Don't mourn, rejoice, Every time you hear the sound of my voice, Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling, And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel my pain Just smile back
Don't cry because he's gone, Smile because you knew him!
Don't grieve for me, for now I'm free! I'm following the path God laid for me. I took his hand when I heard him call, I turned my back and left it all.
I could not stay another day, To laugh, to love, to work or play. Tasks left undone, must stay that way, I found peace at the close of the day.
If my parting has left a void, Then fill it with remembered joy! A love shared, a laugh, a kiss, Ah yes! These things I too will miss.
Be not burdened with times of sorrow, I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow. My life's been full, I've savoured much, Good friends, good times, a loved one's touch.
Perhaps my time seemed all too brief, Don't lengthen it now with undue grief. Lift up your heart and share with me, God wanted me now, he set me free!
When Tomrrow Starts Without Me
When tomorrow starts without me, And Im not there to see; If the sun should rise and find your eyes All filled with tears for me; I wish so much you wouldn't cry The way you did today, While thinking of the many things, We didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me, As much as I love you, And each time that you think of me, I know you'll miss me too; But when tomorrow starts without me, Please try to understand, Than an angel came and called my name, And took me by the hand, And said my place was ready, In heaven far above, And that i'd have to leave behind All those i dearly love.
But as i turned to walk away, A tear fell from my eye, For all my life, I'd always thought, I didn't want to die. I had so much to live for, So much yet to do, It seemed almost impossible, That I was leaving you. I thought of all the yesterdays, The good ones and the bad, I thought of all the love we shared, And all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday, Just even for awhile, I'd say goodbye and kiss you And maybe see you smile. But then I fully realized, That this could never be, For emptiness and memories, Would take the place of me. And when I thought of worldly things, I might miss come tomorrow, I thought of you, and when I did, My heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heaven's gates, I felt so much at home. When God looked down and smiled at me, From his great golden throne, He said "This is eternity, And all I've promised you." Today for life on earth is past, But here it starts anew. I promise no tomorrow, But today will always last, And since each day's the same day There's no longing for the past.
But you have been so faithful, So trusting and so true. Though there were times you did some things, You knew you shouldn't do. But you have been forgiven And now at last you're free. So won't you take my hand And share my life with me?
So when tomorrow starts without me, Don't think we're far apart, For every time you think of me, I'm right here, in your heart.
I found a penny today Just laying on the ground. But it's not just a penny, This little coin I've found.
Found pennies come from heaven, That's what my Grandpa told me. He said Angels toss them down. Oh, how I loved that story.
He said when an Angel misses you, They toss a penny down. Sometimes just to cheer you up, To make a smile out of your frown.
So, don't pass by that penny, When you're feeling blue. It may be a penny from heaven, That an Angels tossed to you.
Do not shed tears now that I'm gone, But smile instead because I have lived. Do not shut your eyes and pray to God that I'll come back, But open your eyes and see all that I have left behind. I know your heart will be empty because you cannot see me, But I still want you to be full of the love we shared. You can turn your back on tomorrow and live only for yesterday, Or you can be happy for tomorrow because of what we shared yesterday. You can remember me and grieve that I am gone, Or you can cherish my memory and let it live on. You can cry and lose yourself, become distraught and turn your back on the world, Or you can do what I want and smile, wipe away the tears, learn to love again and go on.
God looked around his Garden
and found an empty place.
He then looked down upon his earth
and saw your loving face.
He put his arms around you
and lifted you to rest.
His Garden must be beautiful,
he always takes the best.
He knew that you were suffering,
he knew you were in pain.
And knew that you would never
get well on earth again.
He saw your path was difficult,
he closed you tired eyes,
He whispered to you "Peace be Thine"
and gave you wings to fly.
When we saw you sleeping so calm
and free of pain,
We would not wish you back to earth
to suffer once again.
You've left us precious memories,
your love will be our guide,
You live on through your friends,
you're always by our side.
It broke our hearts to lose you,
but you did not go alone.
For part of us went with you
on the day God called you home.
The poem Marissa read at Buggs' memorial service.
Huggs from the sky
When the last rays have faded, And the color falls from the sky, When the pain starts to hit harder, And when it gets tougher not to cry,
When your heart is barely beating, And your world has fallen down, When your mouth refuses to smile, And only bears a frown,
Just remember that I see you, And I'm holding you close to me, That I'm kissing away the tears, I want your smile to be set free.
I'm whispering that I love you, And saying softly in your ear, "One day you'll come meet me, We'll stand together forever here."
But it is just not time yet, For you to join me in the sky, You have so much more to give, Before it's your turn to fly high.
So when the sun has set at night, And the pain grows in your heart, When you replay all the memories, Of us before we had to part,
When you miss hearing my voice, And you feel like screaming "why?!" Just remember I'm always with you- And I'm sending hugs from the sky.
Marissa and Buggs
From Marissa to Buggs
If I could have one lifetime wish, A dream that would come true; I'd pray to God with all my heart For yesterday and you.
A thousand words wont bring you back, I know because I've tried. Neither will a thousand tears, I know because I've cried.
You left behind my broken heart, And happy memories too. But I never wanted memories, I only wanted you!
I love you honey! Sending a kiss your way! I miss you so much!
all my love, Your baby
They say there is a reason, They say that time will heal, But neither time nor reason, Will change the way we feel, For no-one knows the heartache, That lies behind our smiles, No-one knows how many times, We have broken down and cried, We want to tell you something, So there won't be any doubt, You're so wonderful to think of, But so hard to be without
Every step I take Every move I make Every single day Everytime I pray I'll be missing you
Thinking of the day When you went away What a life to take What a bond to break I'll be missing you
It's kinda hard wit you not around Know you in Heaven smilin' down Watching us while we pray for you Everyday we pray for you Till the day we meet again In my heart is where I keep you friend Memories give me the strength I need to proceed Strength I need to believe....
Buggs and Kristen
I whisper your name.... to myself. I whisper....Happy birthday, and I love you. I whisper....I still think of you. I whisper....Goodnight and till we meet again. I whisper....Take care and hope your angel ears can hear my whispers here on earth. I whisper....because I am afraid that if I speak too loud, my heart will hear and break again.... So I just whisper...
Losing A Loved One
Although your heart is hurting, And you feel you can't go on Know in that very moment Your loved one wasn't alone
For God was there beside them Holding onto their hand As the time drew nearer For them to leave this land
He held them close and whispered "My child, your time is now" "But how will my loved ones go on?" He whispered, "I will show them how"
"I will give them strength and love And comfort in the night, I will fill their hearts with peace Knowing you had wings as you took flight
You no longer walk amongst them For now you fly above With all my Heavenly angels Spreading ever lasting and eternal love"
WE LOVE YOU BUGGS!!
Your passing has left an unfillable void in our lives. We have no one to keep us up on the gossip at Classic or the who did what around Owasso. We miss the long phone calls about everything and nothing at all. Your smile...oh how we love that smile. You always knew just what to say to get a rise out of us or to make us laugh...and your laugh was one of a kind, many have tried but no one can duplicate it. Thank you for everything you have given us and for always being there...our best friend. You have touched our lives in a way that no one else can. Send us some angel hugs...we miss them so much. Your one in a million and we miss you soo much. Keep watching over all of us and give us some of your strength cuz boy you had a ton! We will all be together one day, riding 4 wheelers and motorcycles and driving fast in our cars. You may be gone but you will NEVER be forgotton. You will live on in the hearts of those who truley love you forever!! We all love and miss you soo much!!! R.I.P. Buggs
In Our Hearts / Kristen &. Marissa
In Our Hearts
We thought of you with love today.But that is nothing new.We thought about you yesterday.And days before that too.We think of you in silence.We often speak your name.Now all we have is memories.And your picture in a frame.Your memory i...
True Friends / Kristen &. Marissa
Many people will walk in and out of your life. But only true friendswill leave footprints in your heart.
We love You / Kristen &. Marissa (Buggs' two favorite females. )
If tears could build a stairway,
and memories were a lane.
We would walk right up to heaven,
And bring you back again.
No farewell words were spoken,
no time to say goodbye.
You were gone before we knew it,
love / Marissa Anderson (Girlfriend)
My Angel / Marissa Anderson (Girlfriend)
There's a special angel in Heaven,That is a part of me.It is not where I wanted him,But where God wanted him to be.He was here just a moment,Like a night time shooting star.And though he is in Heavenhe isn't very far.He touched the heart...
When Nathaniel was little, him and his brother Cody were playing and Cody came running out of the room to his dad and mom telling on Nathaniel, because he had stuck some of Cody's toys in the toilet, saying "He buggs, he buggs" and from then on it stuck and he got the name Buggs.
We miss you Words cannot describe the pain we are feeling without Buggs. It has almost been a year since he left us and life isn't the same. Buggs was someone you could count on at anytime to be there for a helping hand or just to listen. He cared about his friends deeply as we did for him. He was very close to his older brother Cody, Buggs told Cody everything even things he didn't care to know . Buggs and Cody were very much opposites but Buggs would do anything for his brother and loved him very much. Buggs also has two younger sisters and a younger brother that he adored. They love their Brother Buggs so much. I know Buggs misses playing with them and keeping them in line. Buggs has a nephew that he didn't get to meet on earth but I know he was with baby Nathaniel before he came into this world. I'm sure Buggs would be so proud of his nephew and showing him off to anyone that he could. He was so excited to be an uncle and couldn't wait. It's sad to know baby Nathaniel wont get to meet his Uncle Buggs and see what a great man he was. I know his mom and dad will make sure ne knows how much he is loved by Buggs. Buggs was a very good person with a good heart and the world was a better place for having known him. You were lucky if Buggs called you a friend, you were something special. He loved life and he loved having fun and goofing around no matter what he did. We miss his voice, his laugh, his smile, his hugs, his jokes, everything about him. No one will be able to fill the void Buggs' loss has left in our hearts. We love you and miss you so very much Buggs! Keep watching over all of us and keep us safe until we are called home, I know you will be waiting with open arms.
You are forever missed and loved!
"Buggs" Nathaniel's Photo Album
Anyone who has not got a sticker and would like one let the webmanager's know.